For the past week and a half I have chosen to live out of my car. Not because I have to be, but because of my desire to be more undefended by the security of a family members home or friends welcoming arms. Two years were spent like that and it wore on my mind and relationships. As stated previously : I told myself that I wouldn’t put myself in that situation before getting on the plane out here. Inside my head a conclusion has arrived that it’s not only important to keep your word to other people, but to yourself. If you say you’re going to do something, do it. There are times of compromises, but don’t compromise to the point it injures yourself.
Family are close by and there’s a spare room for me to stay, but it’s just too comfortable. To easy to get set in old ways of stagnation. Like in high school where I would procrastinate, the pressure helped force my focus to a beam and inscribe the deeds to be complete. Something tells me that the pressure will help accomplish more of my goals, take on new journeys and say that I was able to do it. Humbleness is accepting help, humbleness knows when to turn out of the easy path. Because the path of least resistance isn’t always the correct path.
My mindset isn’t prideful to say that I don’t need anyone. A lot of people have helped me and continue to help me. My mindset is to learn and grow into more of what I want to be. To expand the my mind and experience of this life by not having four walls constantly around me in this season of time. Funneling creativity through the restricting life. No television, no refrigerator, no distractions. Mistakes are made in everyones life and I know I’ve made mine. But it’s through the mistakes that we learn and are able to make the difference in our individual lives.
Every night I’ve gone to bed at peace and woken up at peace. Opposite of how I’ve gone to bed while staying in peoples houses. Is it wrong to want to live on your own?
-ArrowAhead